Industry Nine

So much has happened in the last couple months that I can’t even believe it. Especially this last month. I broke off my engagement, moved into an apartment and am looking for a house. I met the most amazing man, or rather realized he’d been in front of me the whole time, and said goodbye for now to two of the most amazing women I have ever had the privilege to meet. I pulled more all nighters than all semester and managed to get a B in a class I thought I was going to fail. I smoked weed for the first time and learned I hated it. I watched people go through heartbreak and start healing. I spent far too much money, but I can’t bring myself to regret it. I have learned more about myself in this past month and a half than in three years. I guess it’s because I’m finally allowed to be myself again. While I’m still part of an us, I am an individual. There’s no more stifling feelings, or being someone else to make anyone else happy. I’ve realized it’s not worth compromising my character or my happiness to make someone else happy. It’s just not, no matter how selfish my choice may seem. I won’t regret it. I can’t. I’m too happy. 

The only one I wanted was the prettiest girl and I got her :) - Chris

My first attempt at the mermaid braid :) (Taken with instagram)

      Hey guys is my hair! :D
Beachy Hair

You know one thing that I love year-round? Beachy, wavy, messy, Sexed Up hair! I’m not sure why this look captures my heart, but it does. It can be soft, girly, romantic, playful, and even sexy, depending on what you wear with it, and how your personality is! Last year for Christmas my bff Liz got me Bumble and Bumble Sea Salt Spray, and it inspired my love for this look. Unfortunately that stuff is expensive, so here’s a few tricks that can help you keep the beachy look going without forking over the cash!

Sea Salt sprays are a great, easy fix, but like I said before they can get slightly costly. So…Make your own! All you need is a spray bottle, 8oz of water, a few teaspoons of sea salt (the more you use, the more textured your results – just experiment to see what works best for you), and just a drop or two of something moisturizing (such as moroccan oil or conditioner) to help combat the drying effect the sea salt has on your hair. Shake well and apply the same as you would a store-bought bottle. Since salt sprays can be pretty drying, it’s not a good idea to use these every day, unless you’re also using a super moisturizing conditioner, a leave-in conditioner, and/or a good moisturizing serum.

3-barrel curling irons, or “waving irons” can also get you the beach hair look. For loose waves, you’ll want a waver with larger barrels; small barrels will get you tighter waves.

Before testing out a 3-barrel waver, you’ll want to make sure you’re using a heat protectant so that your hair doesn’t retain any heat damage!

Using one of these wavers is super easy – all you do is separate your dry hair into sections, spraying your heat protectant as you go, and (starting closer to your roots) clamp down and hold for a few seconds, move down that section of hair, and repeat. Finish with a holding spray, and you’re all done! It’s super easy and pretty quick (depending on how much hair you have).

And lastly; Hair Buns! To try and get this look without having to purchase any additional product, wash your hair, section it into equal parts, and twist and wrap damp hair into two to four low buns (experiment to see what works best for you; smaller sections will give you smaller waves). You can spray a little hair spray (or even salt spray) for extra hold and definition.

This is best to do at night after you get out of the shower, since your hair should be dry by the time you wake up in the morning – just make sure your hair isn’t too wet when you try to do this, since it probably won’t dry all the way especially if your hair is very long or thick.

When you wake up, undo the buns and lightly brush through your hair with your fingers. You can also apply more salt spray and scrunch if you wish, in order to give your waves extra definition (this is especially useful if your hair is really straight and doesn’t hold a curl very well).

Alternatively, you can try braiding your damp hair into a loose braid before you go to sleep.

Hope you guys like this tip! 

Love you,



Hey everyone! It’s nearly two in the morning here, and I have class at nine, but I just thought I would drop you guys a little note. I have been crazy busy this week, with it being homecoming weekend for my college! Also large art projects have been due, but overall it has all been very good.

I’m missing Tim quite a bit, and have only gotten to see him once since I came down to college, because he is working right now…constantly. I feel bad for being a little selfish and wanting to see him, because I know he is trying his hardest. I thought being engaged would make being apart harder, but in some way it makes it easier because  I know we’re one step closer to our dream together.

I am trying to eat/be healthier right now, and I have been doing okay so far. Went to a pilates class with my friend Jordan for the first time, and we cannot believe how bad our abs hurt! The class is really funny, because several football guys are required to take the class (to help maintain ab strength and flexibility). This means there’s about four guys in a class with about twenty girls. Pretty hilarious when they’re trying to figure out if they’re doing an exercise right and are looking around panicked at the girls like “WHAT DO I DO!?!?!”

Anyway, I have class at nine, like I said, so I’m going to crash. I wish you all sweet and lovely dreams!!!!

Much Love,


Ex’s, Heartbreak and Stupidity.

Now, I’ve been told by my friends that I’m very good at giving advice, especially when it comes to relationships. I like to think of myself as a little Carrie Bradshawfor example, when we’re talking about guy problems, instantly I jump up, say stop! And run over to my laptop to write down a new article that I feel will benefit readers.

So yeah, when it comes to guys and talking about them, I know what I’m doing, and I feel smart about it. But a few weeks ago, one of my ex’s abruptly came back into my life. Usually I would like to think I would take my own advice and know exactly what to say and do, but, the question “can we be friends” in addition to “i still love you” can stump anyone.

I realized that when it comes to love, even the wisest of girls can lose her footing as soon as a guy, or “the” guy comes into her life. Think about it, but could it be that when it comes to guys and love, we turn, well stupid? 

It’s a concept that I don’t even want to take personal experience from. But unfortunately, I have tons of experience with it. Thankfully though, a time came when I realized that enough was enough and I decided to cut contact before something awkward and bad happened..again.

If an ex suddenly reappears in your life, or even if a new guy that has the power to knock you over with just one glance, remember with love, you have to be smart and keep your balance. Somehow, through all the craziness of failed and successful relationships, I’ve learned how to be in love and keep my firm, strong, independent footing.

Rely on your friends: 
This is the perfect time for your friends to finally help you get over this jackass, I mean, guy. You’ll really need them during this time to help you fully get over him. Make lots of plans with them to keep you busy and keep them aware of how you’re feeling. And like Miranda did to help Carrie get out of her affair with Big, get them to pull you out of this tragic, stupid-girl-love mess.

Understand that he knows how to play with your mind and heart:

If he’s the guy that could steal your heart within an instant, then you’ll need to be really careful. At least once in her life, a girl will have that certain guy that she has a weak spot for. For Carrie inSex and the City, it was Big. The thing is, that person is better left unsaid. And it should be the same for you in your life.

It’s going to be really hard to move on. Believe me; I’ve been there, . But if you have a guy in your life, or maybe one that suddenly reappeared like me, then you need to realize that he holds the control and upper hand. He could break your heart in an instant, and you know that. So why give him that power? Start slow but steady and somehow find a way to remove him from your life for good.

Be a wise woman and leave before you are left:

Despite the way her life ended, Marilyn Monroe was a smart woman in many ways. Her quote, “a wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left,” is just one of the reasons. That last sentence, “leaves before she is left,” is so true. It can be a risk, but are you willing to put yourself on the line again to get hurt? If deep down in your gut you have a feeling that he will suddenly break your heart, then leave him first. Don’t even give him a little twinge of the chance to hurt you. 

Love can make people really stupid, maybe it’s the bitter me talking, but I honestly know that ex-boyfriends and flings have some sort of control over us sometimes. And after letting it go on for so long, you eventually need to find a way to pull yourself out. Whether you do it leaning on your friends, your family, with one foot on the ground or even bothjust know that you’ve accomplished one of the wisest things that a woman could ever do, and that’s leave before she’s left.

Much Love,


Jersey Shore

Watching my first episode ever of jersey shore. Still not sure how to react. 

Much Love,


Tim just said he was going to plank me upside the head. LOL

Much Love,


peanut butter fudge pretzel brownies.

makes about 12 bars

1/2 cup butter, at room temperature

1 1/2 cups sugar

2 eggs

2 teaspoons vanilla extract

1 1/4 cups all purpose flour

1/4 teaspoon salt

3 tablespoons cocoa powder

2/3 cups chocolate chips (optional)

1 1/2 cups creamy peanut butter

1/3 powdered sugar

1 3/4 cups crushed pretzel pieces

6 tablespoons butter, melted

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F. Grease and flour an 8×8 baking dish and set aside.

Combine melted butter and pretzel crumbs in a bowl until moistened. With the back of a spoon, press pretzels into the 8×8 pan making a crust. If pretzels seem loose, drizzle some additional melted butter over top of hit with a quick shot of non-stick spray.

In the bowl of an electric mixer, beat butter and sugar until fluffy. Add eggs one at a time, then add vanilla. With the mixer on medium speed, add in cocoa, flour and salt, mixing until combined – about 2 to 3 minutes. Fold in chocolate chips. Using a spatula sprayed with non-stick spray, evenly spread brownies on top of pretzel crust. Set pan on a baking sheet and bake for 25-30 minutes, or until brownies are baked through.

When brownies have about 3 minutes left baking, melt peanut butter (I melted mine in the microwave in 30 second increments then stirring) in a bowl. Once melted, stir in 2/3 cup powdered sugar and mix until no lumps remain. Pour over warm brownies and spread evenly. Refrigerate brownies for 1-2 hours, then cut into bars and serve.

Much Love,


5 Ways to be a Bombshell Beauty

How lovely it would be to be a complete traffic-stopping bombshell beauty. There’s different ways to feel like a total babe, and there’s also many ways to channel it—but the trick to really rocking that bombshell look is to have the necessary five ways to own it, while matching it with some killer confidence to stop any man in his tracks. It’s easy, worth-knowing, and necessary if you ever want to be along the likes of Megan Fox and Angelina Jolie—those bombshells know beauty and confidence all at the same time. If you want to be that way too, then well, you’ve come to the right place.
Va Va Volumized Hair
When it comes to hair and having the bombshell look, the bigger the better. To do this, it can take two simple ways. 

For naturally wavy or curly hair:
Step One: Start with simply towel drying your hair when you come out the shower. Leave it in for about 5-10 minutes and then take volumizing mousse and scrunch it into the hair from root to tip.

Step Two: After that is done, take a blow dryer, tilt your head upside down and start blowing drying—again from root to tip—since your roots usually dry the fastest, and you want to make sure your bangs are parted properly.

Step Three: After blow-drying, straighten the bangs or leave them down, shake your hair and boom, volumized hair. 

For straight hair: 
Step One: Separate your hair into different sections and curl with a curling iron. 
The smaller the sections of hair, the more volume you will be able to achieve. 

Step Two: Scrunch it with volumizing mousse and spray with firming spray to set curls. 

Step Three: Shake your hair out, and I mean really shake it! This loosens the curls and gives you that extreme volume that’s the signature-bed-head-Victoria-Secret look.

Pouty Lips
Oh, how sweet it would be to have Angelina Jolie lips. It isn’t fair that she has an amazing career and um, the hottest man, Brad Pitt, but she’s also rocking lips that could likely be equal out to two people’s lips put together. 
To be even more kissable and plump out your lips a little bit—or a lot, like her, then follow these little tricks:

Lip liner: Before applying lip gloss or lipstick, trace the outline of your lips. And a little secret—trace it more onto the skin, it’ll make your lips appear bigger.

Use lip plumper: Of course the more expensive the better for this, but in some cases, it’s not always true. Instead of shelling out $20.00 or more for a lip plumper, you could use one of the cheaper kinds. Check out brands like L’Oreal, Maybelline, or NYC, just to name a few.

Use cinnamon: One of the main ingredients in all those lip plumping formulas is cinnamon. Instead of buying one, try to make your own! Go out and buy some cinnamon and mix it into all of your go-to lip glosses.

Smoky Eyes 
The smoky eye is one of the most famous makeup looks for a date night or night on the town. But, it doesn’t always have to be restricted to just that. What you can do is include a more natural version to your daily makeup routine.

Pick a smoky color: Start by picking out a nice, smoky shade that will either match your outfit or just make your eyes stand out. The possibilities are endless: brown, gray, green or blue. 

Prime the lids: Before putting on eye shadow, use some primer or cover-up on your eyelids to make sure that the makeup won’t crease. And then, using a small brush, starting from the corner, brush in the eye shadow, making sure that the whole lid is covered. Afterward, brush off any excess shadow that fell.

Apply eyeliner: If you really want the smoky eye to stand out, the best way is to add a little eyeliner on either the top lid or right on the lash line of the lower lid. Start by holding the skin by the eye. Hold it really tight to create a smoother surface to draw on the line. Add in an extra swoop at the end if you’d like, or just leave it short and sweet.

Apply light color to the crease: If you really want to make your eyes pop, then add in a shade lighter than your base color and apply it right into the creases. I love to use a shimmery white as it really makes the whole look stand out. Simply take a little eye shadow either on your finger or make up brush and just rub it into the crease of your eye. Afterward, take your two middle fingers and wipe off any excess shadow that fell.

Tie up the look with mascara: To finish, swipe on a few coats of mascara to really define the look. For extra boldness, do both the upper and lower lashes.

Strong Cheekbones and Apple Cheeks
If you watch Glee, then you’re bound of have seen Dianna Agron’s cheekbones and strong apple cheeks. It’s pretty hard not to notice, and is definitely one of her best features. Here, I’ve found some simple and cheap ways to copy the look.

Use bronzer: If you want a look that makes you look a little bit tanner than what you are, then bronzer is perfect, as long as you don’t go crazy. I’ve seen some girls with tanned faces and really white necks because they didn’t blend in properly. So, suck in your cheeks, and blend right into the crease where your cheeks have created a hallow space. Go over lightly, and if you did happen to go a little bit too crazy, then wipe some bronzer off and blend a little bit into your neck line to balance it out.

Peachy blush: I’ve found that instead of using a pink blush, I love using a peachy tone. It gives your cheeks a bit of shimmer that really blends in rather than stands out like the pink tones. Simply just smile really big, with your cheeks rising upwards and go over the apples of your cheeks with a large make up brush in small circles.

If you ask any guy, he’s bound to admit that confidence definitely makes a girl seem that much more attractive. It means she’s sure of herself, she doesn’t care if you approve of her or what she does—instead, her actions fall upon her, and she’s okay with that. 

To own confidence, you have to believe in yourself. Sure, you can look amazing on the outside, with your hot outfit and gorgeous make up, but what’s the point if you’re not feeling beautiful inside? What you feel will radiate on the outside, and that means that your insecurities are bound to show to others at some point. So to own some killer confidence, start to really believe in yourself. Don’t let it get to the point where you turn cocky, but be just enough so that others, and even yourself, know that what you have is so extremely attractive.

The exterior of beauty is one thing, but the interior is a complete other. Work to match up the confidence that you’re presenting on the outside to the inside. Remember, the world doesn’t need glasses to see your beauty. Instead, with it presented inside and out, it’ll just radiate, naturally and in a bombshell fashion.

Much Love,


College Love: Pros and Cons

What should you do if you are in a relationship with someone who will soon be attending school in a different town, state, or country? As summertime winds down, the inevitable, “Should we stay together or break up?” question is bound to come up soon. And if it doesn’t? Well, that’s your answer right there. As a girl who had to make this decision for herself four years ago, I’ve listed the major pros and cons of staying with your sweetie past this summer.

Pro: You Stay Together

Whether he’s been your guy since you were five or fifteen, there’s something about him that you absolutely adore. Screw frat parties and guys you meet in class – your man has it all and no one else will do. Staying in a loving, committed relationship during times of change is comforting and provides much-needed support. You can avoid a painful and untimely break-up and go on with the hope that someday, you will live close to each other again, in a magical land of rainbows and puppies.

Con: You’re Not Really Together

Sure, there are cell phones and Skype and texting and e-mails, but at the end of the day, he won’t be there to rub your shoulders or make you dinner in the microwave or call you out for snorting when you laugh. Also, while your friends at school are going on dates or cuddling up with a movie on a cold Saturday night, you will most likely be alone. At least, you should be if you’re doing the whole relationship thing right. This is the crucial downfall of long distance – it is hard, and sometimes very sad, to be in a relationship with a guy who cannot be there when you want him to be.

Pro: Distance Makes the Heart Grow Fonder

You know how saying goes. And it’s true. When you spend weeks or months at a time apart from your guy, seeing him again is almost like seeing him for the first time. We’re talking butterflies, sweaty palms, and heart palpitations. And when you finally get that first glimpse of him? Game over. Because your time spent together is usually short, there is no sense in fighting or thinking about the future – it’s all happy times and giggles. You leave each other wanting more every time, and nothing makes a relationship better than that.

Con: Or It Doesn’t 

As cheesy as it sounds, it’s true that college year is a time of “change” and “exploration.” Beginning college with a commitment from your past may seem like the right or easy thing to do, but people grow apart, and miles of separation can seriously change your relationship. If you don’t truly know that this is the guy for you, forever, you may soon realize that the person you were with him is not the person you are without him – and that’s ok too.

Much Love,


Last Three days!

Okay, so I went to a HUGE concert/festival called Downpour. It’s an all outdoor, two day concert, and some of the bands were Remedy Drive, The Afters, Press Play, David Crowder Band, Manafest and Disciple. IT WAS SO AWESOME!

Now I know what you’re thinking, that I’m a girly girl and I don’t know how to mosh. PSH I say to you, psh!

Tim and I got lost, twice trying to get there, almost got hit, and managed to somehow go the wrong way down a one way street. NOTE: It didn’t have a sign saying “One Way”! I swear! We also managed to find a random porn shop >_<

So first day, these one group of guys started trying to pick a fight. They pushed my friend Simeon so hard he literally fell on his butt. I was like “Bring it!” Then I leave for like 10 minutes to go find a friend who I haven’t seen in like 6 months, and come back to Tim…poor Tim, scooted as far away from this chick as possible who was trying to stick her boobs up his nose I swear. I started laughing so hard about that, because he looked SO miserable and uncomfortable and she’s like “Hey Baby you want some of THIS!?” Finally I had to stop laughing my butt off and go and save him. We ended up getting home at like….11, so we decided to watch some Dragonball Z. Yup. We’re awesome. Eventually fell asleep. 

Next day was the Sun Valley Fun Day before Downpour started. Pretty much it’s a parade followed by a lot of drinking and eating. Quite hilarious to watch. Then we went into DP, and had a blast, and I started showing off my ring to people and there were some AWESOME reactions. My friend Hope Literally started screaming and jumping up and down, screaming, grabbing my hand and screaming some more! I hadn’t slept very well the night before (don’t be a pervert, I didn’t sleep because Tim tosses and kicks in his sleep. Very uncomfortable. That and we stayed up late watching DBZ) and had drank 2 energy drinks and a Mountain Dew. Needless to say, I was EXTREMELY hyper. By the end of the night (around 12) I was with Tim, Emily and Quinn, laying upside down on the grass and shouting at people to go buy me some ice cream….pretty hilarious. Spent the night at Tim’s again and ended up watching Alf. BEST SHOW EVER. Look it up!

Much Love,


How to Not Be the Crazy Ex-Girlfriend

If you ever go through a break up that you really didn’t want to happen, or you were the one doing the break up only to realize that your One Truly got away—then it can turn a girl’s mind into a frenzy. She’ll text her ex all the time, finds clever ways to bump into him, while “accidentally” looking beyond gorgeous in a skimpy dress and heels (even at church!), and she gets drunk just to drop him a pleading, brave message urging him to be hers again. An ex is an ex for a reason—but unfortunately, not everyone gets the memo on that. If you’re going through a break up now, have a friend going through it, or just want some lovely tips for the future. Then read on and understand how to avoid being the little, miss crazy ex-girlfriend.

Don’t text him:  
I tell this to all my friends—if you have a recent ex boyfriend—don’t text him! If you actually want the relationship to work out again, the worst thing that you can do is try to be in contact with him non-stop. You need to cut off all contact and give him a chance to miss you. If you just drop off the face of the earth, he’ll become curious as to why you haven’t even offered up a breakup etiquette friendly hello. So from now on, give your thumbs a break, maybe even delete his number out of your phone and do not, I repeat, do not, give into texting him.

Don’t seem desperate: 
No one wants a girl who’s nothing but a pity-party. If you’re in contact with him and try to make it seem like your life is nothing, you’re depressed without him, yadda yadda yadda… stop right there! What is attractive about that sentence? Nothing. Instead of moping around, waiting for him to suddenly realize that you two are meant to be—get out in life and start moving on if you can. Do things that will benefit you. Once you get your life together, you’ll not only appear more attractive in his eyes but you’ll start to realize that since you were fine before you met him, you can still be fine even when he’s gone.

Don’t try to make him jealous:   
If you think that posting a bunch of Facebook pictures of you and other guys will have him running back to you on his knees pleading, you’re wrong. By texting him saying that a guy just hit on you, or showing up someplace with a hot guy because you know he’ll be there, you’re only going to make a fool out of yourself. If you really are serious about wanting to get back together with him, then you need to just stop all the games.

Don’t get drunk and carry your phone around you: 

So you’re headed to a party where you plan on getting completely trashed. Upon drinking, all you can think about is the moment where you drunk text him and not feel guilty for saying the most pathetic, obscene things. First rule of drunk ex texting? Step. Away. From. The. Phone. How do you think he’ll react by getting a slurred message where it seems like he can inhale the alcohol right from your text? If you’re going out with your friends to drink, give them your phone to hold on to, or better yet, leave it at home. Go out and enjoy your night, meet new people, and stop obsessing about whether or not he replied. All he’s going to do is drive you insane by ignoring you and leaving you hanging. Understand that he’s clearly playing with your mind. 

Find someone better: 
Once you find the right guy who exceeds all that he ever did, you’ll begin to realize your ex’s annoying flaws and understand that you were clearly blind before, but now, with the right guy, you can see.

But hey, if crazy is your thing, then here are some sure-fire ways to get this poor guy scared and a second away from an issuing out a restraining order on you:

1.) Call him every five minutes, if he answers, breath very heavily and then hang up.

2.) Walk your dog by his house every night at the same time. If he ever comes out, look surprised, blurt out a sudden “hi!” and run away.

3.) Add all his friends and family members on Facebook. Find a family picture of them, photo shop yourself into the photo and post it as your profile picture

4.) Watch the video “Stuck like glue,” by Sugarland. You’re bound to get some awesome tips.

5.) Remember how in “How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days,” Andy created her very own family album for her and Ben? Do the exact same with your future children yodeling in Switzerland and all.

6.) When he goes on a date, find a way to be there… at all times. If they’re at a movie, dress up in disguise and sit behind them. Every time one of them tries to make a move, put your feet up on their chair and “accidentally” stop them from ever embracing. And when they go in for the good night kiss, run by suddenly, yelling out, “He has aids!”

7.) Send him some really, really bad poetry.

Much Love,